I AM BACK!!

Finally, i am back to where i belong
SO UNWILLINGLY!!!!
hate to be here...seriously..
the life in Suzhou is the best
but too bad...good time always end fast
these 26 days, i learn a lot...
i learn about friendship~
getting to know many people
i learnt to bargain
i learnt to keep myself healthy
i learnt to be independent
but, sad to say
i have not learn how to cherish
and to have to end the trip
cherish the moment
only at the less day..
we get to fly a kite
we get to bond with people who
we don tok to during the first day
we get to buy fireworks together (WEEEEE)
we get to put fireworks together
we get to go heart to heart talk every night
how do we get a chance to do a heart to heart talk
session in singapore!!! HOW????
its seriously impossible....
holding our pillows sitting on the bed
watching some kind of artistic movie together
in the middle of the night...
HOW can we find time to do this in singapore??
I am who i am in Suzhou ... thats the real me
but back in singapore.. i begin to hide the real me
just the first day in singapore, my mum irritate me..
and now i realise, i have to listen to her naggings and
haolianing of her so call BOYFRIENDS!!! and
telling me she don "love" my dad anymore..
I DON WAN TO LISTEN TO ALL THESE~~~
i wan back my suzhou life seriously...
i hate staying at home...its SUCK!!!!
suck to the deepest part of earth...
SUCK SUCK SUCK...unlimited SUCK to describe
this morning my brother ask me
"how still use to ur bed? " den i was like
am i now in singapore??? oh SHIT... i am back SUCK!
i tout i was like dreaming...but i am not!!! ( how i wish i am)
those days in Suzhou is like a dream..
a dream that i HAVE to wake up unwillingly
i am so unwilling to come back sg yet
Ok! in suzhou i seriouly misses my toilet and bed
but now back here i realise i miss more thingy there
i miss the food , the weather, the freedom , shou zua bing
the cheap price there and most importantly
the CLIQUE!!!!!!! we spend like so much time tgt
even after room check, we still have a heart to heart session
before going into our lalaland!! now... i have htht myself lor..
our friendship will NEVER end..NEVER can it end
it will always extend till we even lying in the cofin!!
yeah! AND finally a big thanks to all people in Suzhou
i really do have a lot of fun...the most fun i even have in my life
:)

one more day

one more day i will be flying to china suzhou
i don know what is my feeling now?
am i excited or 依依不舍...
to be honest, i cant wait to go
really... cant wait to leave this house
whats wrong with this family
why my mum and my dad like that
trying not to hate them
but seriously...i hate them..
i hate not becoz i want to
i hate them becoz their action, their speech
they way they act as a parents
they fail to reach my expectation
as a parents...in my mind...

however...this is myfate..
it's destined that they will be my parents
therefore...i have to live with it
i understand... i hate them its becoz i cherish them
i wish that they will know this point
and make life easier...
i hope that this one month absent at home
they can reflect on themselve...

this goes the same to my brother
his attitude change after going to JC
i don know is it stress in school or what
i just wish to let him know that
i can always listen...but just please
brother don show this kind of sucky
attitude at home...this really spoil mood
and please take care of papa mummy when
i am not at home make sure they don quarrel
anything talk nicely don need to be loud okie...
and try to spend more time outside your room...
today mother just tell me that she almost forgotten
that she has a son sleeping in that room..
this is really sad hearing this and me too...
i almost forgotten i have a brother...
its time for u to grow up
understand?? finally..
PLEASE DO WASH MY HAMSTERS AND CHECK THEIR FOOD AND WATER!
THANKS....

counting down

2 more weeks to suzhou!!
the temperature is cooling there...
cant wait!!!! :) don miss me yeah

this is how i feel now...listen

这是一个没有答案的问题
我感觉我变了 谁让我变了
原本这是一个没有答案的问题
却被你解开了 简单的解开了

你走过来 带着和别人不同的对白
你甚至不让我知道 你对我有多好

慢慢的 这份爱 悄悄的住下来
深深的 在心里 没人看的出来
安静的 但却一直都在
是你默默的爱

慢慢的 这份爱 已经变成依赖
浅浅的 笑容里 却让我充满期待
不用说 我就能够明白
你默默的爱

这是一个没有答案的问题
我感觉我变了 谁让我变了
原本这是一个没有答案的问题
却被你解开了 简单的解开了

你走过来 带着和别人不同的对白
你甚至不让我知道 你对我有多好

慢慢的 这份爱 悄悄的住下来
深深的 在心里 没人看的出来
安静的 但却一直都在
是你默默的爱

慢慢的 这份爱 已经变成依赖
浅浅的 笑容里 却让我充满期待
不用说 我就能够明白
你默默的爱

erm...understand the lyric?

why why why!

why am i stupid and dam dam like a fool
why am i so careless so irritating so clamsy!
why am i so stupid till hopeless!!!
Why Why....small thing also cannot do well!!! i hate it!!!!