Wednesday, December 31, 2008

31-12-2008

the last day of 2008
time really flies
its like yesterday i just
blog about the last day of 2007
well... if time stop then
human will never learn
how to live and never grow
like me see
what did i do in 2008

these are my thought for year 2008

first, i realise i really not suitable
studying in this course
but i will still work hard
because i am half way through

second, i realise the truth
side of human beings

third, when you see things like this
and hope that it works like your way
but it never works

forth, something when its not yours
means it not yours

fifth, i only have one life
so i want to live to the fullest
after my diploma
i want to fight for my dream
when one day my dream come true
you will know how hard i work for it

what happened this year

first, earthquake in sichun

second, olympics

third, economic crisis

what happen at home

first, quarrel

second, maid went home
might not be coming back

third, still quarrel

well...lets hope for a better year ahead

i wish that all my dreams can come true

my parent NEVER quarrel again

my brother work hard for his future

all the people i know and i love will be happy and healthy


jia you!!!

gonna go....HAPPY NEW YEAR
see you next year! good night...

Friday, December 26, 2008

lyric very meaningful

人 群中 哭著 你只想變成透明的顏色
你再也不會夢 或痛 或心動了
你已經決定了 你已經決定了
你 靜靜 忍著 緊緊把昨天在拳心握著
而回憶越是甜 就是 越傷人了
越是在 手心留下 密密麻麻 深深淺淺 的刀割

你不是真正的快樂 你的笑只是你穿的保護色
你決定不恨了 也決定不愛了
把你的靈魂關在永遠鎖上的軀殼

這 世界 笑了 於是妳合群的一起笑了
當生存是規則 不是 你的選擇
於是妳 含著眼淚 飄飄盪盪 跌跌撞撞 的走著

你不是真正的快樂 你的笑只是你穿的保護色
你決定不恨了 也決定不愛了
把你的靈魂關在永遠鎖上的軀殼

你不是真正的快樂 你的傷從不肯完全的癒合
我站在你左側 卻像隔著銀河
難道就真的抱著遺憾一直到老了 然後才後悔著

你值得真正的快樂 你應該脫下你穿的保護色
為什麼失去了 還要被懲罰呢能不能就讓
悲傷全部 結束在此刻 重新開始活著

i think this lyric really very meaningful
to people who deserve to be happy
but because of some things happened
and become someone who is happy
in the outside but crying in the inside
"你值得真正的快樂 你應該脫下你穿的保護色"

Monday, December 22, 2008

pissed with my life

went to malaysia KL last weekend
by jetstar flight, $200 per pax
so expensive
its a last min dicision
my mum want to visit my aunt there
who is pretty sick
well... i can say that its a nice trip
although my mum never the less
shout at me or schold me
but i "REN" "REN""REN"

we stay in my 'yi zhang' sis house
i call her gugu
she stay with all her siblings
so her house hav many people
the people there are nice
althougt they stay in KL
the capital of malaysia
but they stay at the outside
of the city
they all farmers
every early in the morning the male
will go to the farm to pick up
the vegetable then the female
will sell the vegetable which were
prepapred yesterday in the market
the kid at home will help to pack the vegetable
this is the streagth when
the whole family work together
the family never travel to other country before
not even the KL airport
so i think i am very fortunate to stay in singapore
they everyday do the same things
even on the public holiday, the kid help
daily after school without any complains
(my mum always use this to compare with me
keep saying how useless am i...its sad and hurt)
BUT they are HAPPY i can see

in singapore, i can sleep till super late
use computer use facebook
have the latest ipod, PSP
but i think i am not as happy as they are
is not that i am not satisfy
is because they work so hard
their parents will praise them
talk to them nicely
their house always filled with laughter

my house is always cold and quite
especially at night
WHY?? is because we stay in the city
i dont think so
i think is because we are greedy
we are not satisfy at all
went to see my aunt
the house she stay is like
i only can say
"its not even for a human to stay"
to describe....

it is sad and disgrace of me
really....i need to work harder
real hard i wan to prove to my mum
i will success i will!!
in the end there is something i want say
nothing is enough
nothing is fair WHY!!!!
why why why......
is this faith
can i change my faith
CAN???? :(
my mum dont allow me to bring cam
so....






Saturday, December 13, 2008

Picturezzzz

my face a bit weird haha.
the two hamster


Thursday, December 11, 2008

Happy 19th Birthday To JY

19th year of my life
how many more years
i need to success
to achieve
to dream come true???
how many more time
i have?? to have how many
more years???

today is my birthday
as usual i make birthday wishes
1. i wish my parents everyday happy and
nv quarral again
2. i wish everyone around me who i know
or who i going to know always happy
3. i wish.....i keep to myself!
a new life begin
so i have to be more mature
very mature

anyway thanks alot to
- those who message me
and willing to give
singtel,M1 or starhub the 5cents
just for me ~~~
- my family they bought me
a blakeforest from Han's..
- my classmate 07 who celebrate
my birthday in mac and bought me
cupcakes and 2 little hamster
- MEL... who send me a lovely card, lovely
message and blog on her blog... write on
her hand somemore... so touch!!
ink ... difficult to wash..
- FISHBALL who always by my side
FISHBALL jia you!!
- those who forgot my birthday
nvm coz i will always remember
U forgot my birthday
- lastly.........:)

(will upload some piczzzz soon)