This marks the end of Chapter 2009

Zooooooooom.....did you see 2009 just went pass!! gosh..tts fast..what have you done this year?
did you have fun? enjoy every single day of 2009? or just simply zoooooom pass 2009??

well..for me..i can say is..this year is really like..a year of drama! haha..many dramatic story happen to me! haha.. i think i can write a drama script!

Part One
My suzhou trip. Before writing this post, i was reading through my past posts. And i read this post about counting down on my suzhou trip which is before april? yah..haha and i mention that i hope to be more mature after the trip because going there is like..i have to depend many things on myself. however, i dont think i became mature like wise..i think i became more friendly? i don know..i only think that friends around me changed. oh! and one thing i must say changed my life is my friend around me! they change my life...haha now we just simply like to travel around singapore in the middle of the night. they are my suzhou clique...though this clique is like..giving me alot of problems but its a rare clique overrall..a clique which i think i can never have the second chance to have one again! haha...

Part Two
IPP. this attachment is really happening...super super happening! not only to me and also to my friends around me. I was attach to this company call kewill. and we are the pioneer batch. i remember the first day i was super excited to see or to know what is my job to be like. End up, it a helpdesk! quite sad, cause is not something i want but when days go pass its like! i really do enjoy it! the pantry auntie will cook nice dessert every wed and i do miss it though i don drink its everytime! haha... i miss the calls from our customers though sometimes they ask silly questions that really makes you -.-" haha.. i miss the journey from amk to my office and back home too. the seneries, the different ppl board the bus and alight the bus, the bus driver, the everything! gooossshhhh... just miss it super alot!

Part Three
Home. This year haha... no diff ! so nothing much to say..same! quarral lor! quarral quarral and quarral!!! haha...oh..and i have a new maid call linda! erm...she is a nice person..but! abit slow in learning new things...haiz..what to do?

Finally,
my new year resolutions...
WORK HARD WORK HARD!! PASSSSSS MY DIPLOMA...
AND I WANT TO GET INTO AN UNIVERSITY! GET A DEGREE...IN ENGINEERING? HAHA...AREOSPACE! HOPE SO...HAHA GO FOR MY TAIWAN TRIP! HOPE IS A FULFILL ONE!! AND YAH..

HAPPY NEW YEAR!! AND ITS GONNA BE 21th YEARS OLD! WOOHOO... JIA YOU JY! BETTER FUTURE FOR YOU...LOVE LOVE!

BYE..SEE YAH NEXT YEAR!

How Do You Feel..

How do you feel when your parents going overseas next day?
Sad ? Happy ? Well for me is...HOORAY!! peace and quiet at home..woohooooooo!!
How do you feel when your parents coming back the next day?
Happy right? haha..Well for me is...WHAT!! thats fast...WHY? OMG!!!
you must be thinking..WAH so evil sia..parents go overseas you should be sad right? then when they are coming back..you should be happy ma..but why you opposite de?

Reason: Today is the first day they come back..you know what? QUERRAL! FUCK...

She everyday mention that this house will be demage by my dad because he is not hardworking enough to give us a better life..

But what i can say from my point of view is that this house will just turn cold each day due to her demanding attitude. Ya..i can understand she really works VERY VERY hard for this house..she contribute alot. But.. she want something back. Ya..i know from us ma..but i though that love from parents do not ask for repayment? i do know that our job as their children is to take care of them when they are old. i know i really do know..only that i do not have the ability now right? fuck..how i wish i can earn my own money now! She thinks that she did a good job as a mother? i doubt...what i learn about attitude and my character..i have nothing in my soul that is the same as her...NOTHING! i dont scold my maid? i dont shout at ppl? i dont ask for more than what ppl can give me? i dont anyhow throwt temper? fuck..i just simply unlike her.. where the hell i come from? i think i am too kind :X

i know i cant blame you know..i just cant help it but to blame..blame fate to bring me to her..blame myself to choose to be here..BLAME!! fuck..

ALREADY GONE...

WHAT A MEANINGFUL LYRIC...

Kelly Clarkson - Already Gone

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you, now I can't stop

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry

Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

Already gone, already gone, already gone
Already gone, already gone, already gone, yeah

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

I FORGOT MY BFF!!

MEL!! how can i forgot to thankssss her!!!!

thanks for her wonderful present...THANKSSSS

love yah...muakzzz!

My 20th Birthday..

Wanna thanksssss.
thanks Eileen for the surprise and the accompany on my birthday.
thanks Weiqi for the Card, she came here purposely to drop the card and for everything too.
thanks Stanley for coming to the surprise and the help on the coding.. haha
thanks Loke for the helpfulness.. he really can help yo!
thanks Weihao for the passion of taking nice picturessss..
thanks Maggie for the great hugggsss..
thanks SJ for the wonderful present..aprreciate it!
thanks kenneth for coming..it really great of him!
thanks Singnee for coming although she like abit tired ! haha..
thanks Sean for coming too and ya...thanks...
thanks WeiSiong for the passionate attitude! haha..
thanks Desmond Bro..for taking care of me!
thanks Fishball..FISHBALL..thanksssss..100000thanksss
thanks ShuZhen and JinShan..for the wonderful dinnerrrr and and laughter!
thanks Edmund..thanks for coming..he is always there..:) MOON!
thanks Eugene..thanks for the blur blur look he has..
thanks Daniel..he watched new moon but still watch again! haha..
thanks my Brother..for everything!! EVERYTHING..
thanks my parentsss for letting me coming to this world fill with lovesssss..
although they quarral really fierce on my birthday..and lucky i am not at home!
BUT..still have to thankss them! THANKSSSS.. -.-

my wishes are:
1. i can find my path after graduated
2. i wish i can have the chance to leave this place..
3. i wish everyone around can stay healthy and happy..haha

i wont want to wish my parents stop quarraling..coz i know this will nv happen! NV...

THIS IS HOW I FEEL...

Someone once told me that you have to choose
What you win or lose
You can’t have everything

Don’t you take chances
You might feel the pain
Don’t you love in vain
’cause love won’t set you free

I can’t stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy
But safe as could be

So what if it hurts me?
So what it I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge,
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
I just trying to be happy
I just wanna be happy, yeah

Holding on tightly
Just can’t let go
Just trying to play my role
Slowly disappear

But all these days
They feel like they’re they’re same
Just different faces
Different place
Get me out of here

I can’t stand by the side
Ooh, no
And watch this life pass me by
Pass me by

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge?
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
I’m just trying to be happy

Oh, happy
Oh

So when it turns that I can see???
This rope??
Victim??
Don’t say anything

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge?
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
I just wanna be happy
Happy
I just wanna be
Oh
I just wanna be
Happy.

Leona Lewis -Happy

who can save me...