Happy MOOO Year!!!

today chu shan so late then blog
erm....let start from cu xi
on the eve, my da gu family came
my house for dinner
quite fun i can say
on the cu yi we went bai nian
collected quite a number of
hong bao.....got at least above 150 bah:)
then on the cu er ...
all my cousins come
also quite fun..coz can play with the kids
then today went to weiqi's house to have steamboat
quite fun too....before that went for a meeting
interview lar...for the suzhou trip
if everything settled
i might be leaving for suzhou on april
for 1 month bah
hope i can become more mature when i come back
a brand new JY!!haha.....
well..i will stop here...
happy chinese new year!!
GOOD HEALTH!!

touching

Spend all your time waiting for that second chance

For the break that will make it ok

There's always some reason to feel not good enough

And it's hard at the end of the day

I need some distraction oh beautiful release

Memories seep from my veins

They may be empty and weightless and maybe

I'll find some peace tonight

In the arms of an Angel fly away from here

From this dark, cold hotel room,

and the endlessness that you fear

You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie

You're in the arms of an Angel;

may you find some comfort here

So tired of the straight line, and everywhere you turn

There's vultures and thieves at your back

The storm keeps on twisting, you keep on building the lies

That you make up for all that you lack

It don't make no difference, escaping one last time

It's easier to believe

In this sweet madness, oh this glorious sadness

That brings me to my knees

In the arms of an Angel far away from here

From this dark, cold hotel room,

and the endlessness that you fear

You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie

In the arms of an Angel; may you find some comfort here

You're in the arms of an Angel; may you find some comfort here

31-12-2008

the last day of 2008
time really flies
its like yesterday i just
blog about the last day of 2007
well... if time stop then
human will never learn
how to live and never grow
like me see
what did i do in 2008

these are my thought for year 2008

first, i realise i really not suitable
studying in this course
but i will still work hard
because i am half way through

second, i realise the truth
side of human beings

third, when you see things like this
and hope that it works like your way
but it never works

forth, something when its not yours
means it not yours

fifth, i only have one life
so i want to live to the fullest
after my diploma
i want to fight for my dream
when one day my dream come true
you will know how hard i work for it

what happened this year

first, earthquake in sichun

second, olympics

third, economic crisis

what happen at home

first, quarrel

second, maid went home
might not be coming back

third, still quarrel

well...lets hope for a better year ahead

i wish that all my dreams can come true

my parent NEVER quarrel again

my brother work hard for his future

all the people i know and i love will be happy and healthy

jia you!!!

gonna go....HAPPY NEW YEAR
see you next year! good night...

lyric very meaningful

人 群中 哭著 你只想變成透明的顏色
你再也不會夢 或痛 或心動了
你已經決定了 你已經決定了
你 靜靜 忍著 緊緊把昨天在拳心握著
而回憶越是甜 就是 越傷人了
越是在 手心留下 密密麻麻 深深淺淺 的刀割

你不是真正的快樂 你的笑只是你穿的保護色
你決定不恨了 也決定不愛了
把你的靈魂關在永遠鎖上的軀殼

這 世界 笑了 於是妳合群的一起笑了
當生存是規則 不是 你的選擇
於是妳 含著眼淚 飄飄盪盪 跌跌撞撞 的走著

你不是真正的快樂 你的笑只是你穿的保護色
你決定不恨了 也決定不愛了
把你的靈魂關在永遠鎖上的軀殼

你不是真正的快樂 你的傷從不肯完全的癒合
我站在你左側 卻像隔著銀河
難道就真的抱著遺憾一直到老了 然後才後悔著

你值得真正的快樂 你應該脫下你穿的保護色
為什麼失去了 還要被懲罰呢能不能就讓
悲傷全部 結束在此刻 重新開始活著

i think this lyric really very meaningful
to people who deserve to be happy
but because of some things happened
and become someone who is happy
in the outside but crying in the inside
"你值得真正的快樂 你應該脫下你穿的保護色"

pissed with my life

went to malaysia KL last weekend
by jetstar flight, $200 per pax
so expensive
its a last min dicision
my mum want to visit my aunt there
who is pretty sick
well... i can say that its a nice trip
although my mum never the less
shout at me or schold me
but i "REN" "REN""REN"

we stay in my 'yi zhang' sis house
i call her gugu
she stay with all her siblings
so her house hav many people
the people there are nice
althougt they stay in KL
the capital of malaysia
but they stay at the outside
of the city

they all farmers
every early in the morning the male
will go to the farm to pick up
the vegetable then the female
will sell the vegetable which were
prepapred yesterday in the market
the kid at home will help to pack the vegetable
this is the streagth when
the whole family work together

the family never travel to other country before
not even the KL airport
so i think i am very fortunate to stay in singapore
they everyday do the same things
even on the public holiday, the kid help
daily after school without any complains
(my mum always use this to compare with me
keep saying how useless am i...its sad and hurt)
BUT they are HAPPY i can see

in singapore, i can sleep till super late
use computer use facebook
have the latest ipod, PSP
but i think i am not as happy as they are
is not that i am not satisfy
is because they work so hard
their parents will praise them
talk to them nicely
their house always filled with laughter

my house is always cold and quite
especially at night
WHY?? is because we stay in the city
i dont think so
i think is because we are greedy
we are not satisfy at all
went to see my aunt
the house she stay is like
i only can say
"its not even for a human to stay"
to describe....

it is sad and disgrace of me
really....i need to work harder
real hard i wan to prove to my mum
i will success i will!!
in the end there is something i want say
nothing is enough
nothing is fair WHY!!!!
why why why......

is this faith
can i change my faith
CAN???? :(

my mum dont allow me to bring cam
so....