失落沙洲

我不是一定要你回来
只是当又一个人看海
回头才发现你不在留
下我迂回的徘徊我不
是一定要你回来只是
当又把回忆翻开除了
你之外的空白
还有谁能来教我爱

爱多少早知道

早知道我会爱得受不了
就该随身带着一把剪刀
把所有我不爱的画面都去掉
是否我会更好
早知道认识你像玩高空弹跳
拉着你我爱的距离忽大忽小
也许认识我的时候你就知道
你对我的爱有多少

What Should i Do?

what should i do?
what should i do?
what should i do?
what should i do?
what should i do?
what should i do???????

heart pain
heart pain
heart pain
heart pain
heart pain
heart pain
heart pain
heart pain
heart pain

feel like crying but i cant bring myself to cry!!!!
WHY???????
SUCK...the tears like stuck there don want to come out!
WHY????
but i feel so damn upset!! VERY UPSET!!!!
WHY???
shit.......feel so horrible now by this kind of feelings...sian!!

MEL...updated!

well well..where should i start?
lets start with my IPP.
my job scoop is to pick up phone calls
the calls car mainly from the logistic company
when they have to import or export goods
they have to submit permit to custom
and they have to use this software design by my company
and this software somethings will prompt error
so when ppl is a noob to computers software
they will call in to this software provider
and thats us....so we have to solve this error for them

and during this period of time
many things happen during this i can say
things happen in friendship, family
my parent relationship is like a big ship going to shink in a big ocean
and mayb i am just a small fishing sanpan going pass the ship
trying to rescue but my strength is too small...
disappointed i can say... really sad
they are already living in this world for so long
and they still stay in those dinosuar era
so childish !! i think i am so much mature than them can..
well..i cant comment so much! its adult affair what can i say?
but why my mum keep wanting me to interfer? don you think its unfair?
wat i can say is... when time to say good bye...so be it! its fate...

lets talk about fishball birthday celebration
so happy for her.. her life is so much beautiful now
she found a nice guy who willing to take care of her
pamper her, dots her do anything for her...
CONGRATE FISHBALL!!! cherish it orh...

met melvina finally!!
miss her deep deep la...
planning to have another dinner tgt
WHEN WHEN???
and also CONGRAT her...got a new job.
workhard yeah? love ya....

ok! this is the end of this session..
will continue ok? well..actually there is more to say
but...i choose to say it instead of typing it here
haha... BYE! have a nice day...

I AM BACK!!

Finally, i am back to where i belong
SO UNWILLINGLY!!!!
hate to be here...seriously..
the life in Suzhou is the best
but too bad...good time always end fast
these 26 days, i learn a lot...
i learn about friendship~
getting to know many people
i learnt to bargain
i learnt to keep myself healthy
i learnt to be independent
but, sad to say
i have not learn how to cherish
and to have to end the trip
cherish the moment
only at the less day..
we get to fly a kite
we get to bond with people who
we don tok to during the first day
we get to buy fireworks together (WEEEEE)
we get to put fireworks together
we get to go heart to heart talk every night
how do we get a chance to do a heart to heart talk
session in singapore!!! HOW????
its seriously impossible....
holding our pillows sitting on the bed
watching some kind of artistic movie together
in the middle of the night...
HOW can we find time to do this in singapore??
I am who i am in Suzhou ... thats the real me
but back in singapore.. i begin to hide the real me
just the first day in singapore, my mum irritate me..
and now i realise, i have to listen to her naggings and
haolianing of her so call BOYFRIENDS!!! and
telling me she don "love" my dad anymore..
I DON WAN TO LISTEN TO ALL THESE~~~
i wan back my suzhou life seriously...
i hate staying at home...its SUCK!!!!
suck to the deepest part of earth...
SUCK SUCK SUCK...unlimited SUCK to describe
this morning my brother ask me
"how still use to ur bed? " den i was like
am i now in singapore??? oh SHIT... i am back SUCK!
i tout i was like dreaming...but i am not!!! ( how i wish i am)
those days in Suzhou is like a dream..
a dream that i HAVE to wake up unwillingly
i am so unwilling to come back sg yet
Ok! in suzhou i seriouly misses my toilet and bed
but now back here i realise i miss more thingy there
i miss the food , the weather, the freedom , shou zua bing
the cheap price there and most importantly
the CLIQUE!!!!!!! we spend like so much time tgt
even after room check, we still have a heart to heart session
before going into our lalaland!! now... i have htht myself lor..
our friendship will NEVER end..NEVER can it end
it will always extend till we even lying in the cofin!!
yeah! AND finally a big thanks to all people in Suzhou
i really do have a lot of fun...the most fun i even have in my life
:)