就想賴著妳

Nice show! erm..maybe i bais la..coz i like ELLA haha..
but i like! yah..and yah..nice show..so intro u all to watch! haha.. :)

FA XIE AR!!!! haha..

I still prefer blogging then tweeting! haha..
:X this doesnt mean i have a twitter! haha..
coz blog can write many many thingsssss haha..

well..i begin to realise that i do not need you to be in my life anymore
whether did u msg me today or tml..it doesnt matter to me anymore
its like why should i bother so much when it doesnt seems to be important to you at all?
right right?? so! who are you?

come on!!
u are just someone who only know how to piss me off only..
i don care if u happen to read this post! anot..

in conclusion...YOU SUCK!
u have no right to ruin the friendship i gave you!
ruin the trust i gave you...
its ur lose of not treasuring it well... ok? such a total loser!
just so disappointing!

i am not being sarcastic la...
but ya..you are such an ass! haha...

woshhh...feel so much better!! haha... :)

Meaningful Phrase..

Some phrase i think its very meaningful...haha :



From 下一站，幸福:

离开以后 我并没有气你 恨你
不增埋怨你误会我 我只有气我自己
因为有很多话 到了分开以后才后悔
为什么我从来没说出口

From 就想賴著妳:

东西有没有那个价值 就要看拥有它的那个人
懂不懂得珍惜它 在乎它
人也一样

From 海派天心：

喜欢和爱的差别 喜欢是可以很多人 爱就只可以一个人



From 梁文音 哭過就好了MV :

我从来都不说不
不是因为我愿意
是因为我爱你

我从来都不生气
不是因为我没有脾气
是因为我爱你

我从来都不哭
不是因为我没有眼泪
是因为我爱你

Drink Drank Drunk...

i want to be even more drunk seriously!
Yet i am not..WTH! why? why?



i am tired..



當又一次美夢落空 回憶裏被愛
那股激動 天色好紅
溫柔好濃 在胸口浮現你的面容
也許我們當時年紀真的太小
從那懵懵懂懂走進各自天空
那是甚麼 讓彼此選擇 又不僅是尊重

不能握的手 從此匿名的朋友
其實我的執著依然執著
與你無關淚自行吸收
不能握的手 卻比親人更親厚
當所有如果都沒有如果
只有失去的溫柔 最溫柔

不能握的手 從此匿名的朋友
其實我的執著 依然執著
卻決心和你不再聯絡
不能握的手 卻比愛人更長久
當所有如果都沒有如果
只有失去的擁有 最永久

Writing Mood : EMO! haha..

Let me use Lyrics to represent me mood :( haha..

丁当-我爱他

他的情况留在
某一节车厢
地下铁里的风
比回忆还重
整座城市一直等着我
有一段感情还在漂泊
对他唯一遗憾
是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪
都停不下来
若那一刻重来我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏 都不肯醒来
我爱他 跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂 最终的荒唐

如果还有遗憾
又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了 就能好了吗
曾经依靠彼此的肩膀


OK..like over EMO..haha..well..
its over! WE ARE JUST FRIEND.. :)

Unwanted Truth

i found out what i always wanted to find out.. its like a pandora box, nobody know what is inside but once the box is open everything revealed. it might be good as well as it might be bad too...
the box is slightly open now. to me..i dont know whether its good or bad..well..it does not benefits me alot..coz when i know the truth..i am sad! sad becoz reality is just so cruel...but at the same time..consist of abit happy? coz i know... things are not forgotten yet!

time might be able to fade things away..its the matter of how long someone need! for me..i think forever? haha..well..i am waiting for someone to open my pandora box! haha.. :X

If i have the chance to choose again...

If i have the chance to choose again..
i would not want to be in this family..
i would not want to be a girl..
i would not want to live a boring life..
maybe i would learn to smoke, gamble, drink, join gang be an ah lian!
pon sch, never go home, point middle finger!
i would choose to be born in a rich family or an ANG MO family
i would study even harder than now!
I JUST SIMPLY HATE MY LIFE NOW! ITS GETTING EVEN MORE STUPID AND BORING!
ppl just cant understand how i feel... coming home its like cold and bored!
no laughter..nothing! what i can hear is parents complaining each other...
WHAT THE FUCK! :X
coming home is so torturing can! its like...FUCK WHY AM I HOME SO EARLY!
haiz....just don like DON LIKE!!!! IDIOT IDIOT!!!! ARGHHHHH....

This marks the end of Chapter 2009

Zooooooooom.....did you see 2009 just went pass!! gosh..tts fast..what have you done this year?
did you have fun? enjoy every single day of 2009? or just simply zoooooom pass 2009??

well..for me..i can say is..this year is really like..a year of drama! haha..many dramatic story happen to me! haha.. i think i can write a drama script!

Part One
My suzhou trip. Before writing this post, i was reading through my past posts. And i read this post about counting down on my suzhou trip which is before april? yah..haha and i mention that i hope to be more mature after the trip because going there is like..i have to depend many things on myself. however, i dont think i became mature like wise..i think i became more friendly? i don know..i only think that friends around me changed. oh! and one thing i must say changed my life is my friend around me! they change my life...haha now we just simply like to travel around singapore in the middle of the night. they are my suzhou clique...though this clique is like..giving me alot of problems but its a rare clique overrall..a clique which i think i can never have the second chance to have one again! haha...

Part Two
IPP. this attachment is really happening...super super happening! not only to me and also to my friends around me. I was attach to this company call kewill. and we are the pioneer batch. i remember the first day i was super excited to see or to know what is my job to be like. End up, it a helpdesk! quite sad, cause is not something i want but when days go pass its like! i really do enjoy it! the pantry auntie will cook nice dessert every wed and i do miss it though i don drink its everytime! haha... i miss the calls from our customers though sometimes they ask silly questions that really makes you -.-" haha.. i miss the journey from amk to my office and back home too. the seneries, the different ppl board the bus and alight the bus, the bus driver, the everything! gooossshhhh... just miss it super alot!

Part Three
Home. This year haha... no diff ! so nothing much to say..same! quarral lor! quarral quarral and quarral!!! haha...oh..and i have a new maid call linda! erm...she is a nice person..but! abit slow in learning new things...haiz..what to do?

Finally,
my new year resolutions...
WORK HARD WORK HARD!! PASSSSSS MY DIPLOMA...
AND I WANT TO GET INTO AN UNIVERSITY! GET A DEGREE...IN ENGINEERING? HAHA...AREOSPACE! HOPE SO...HAHA GO FOR MY TAIWAN TRIP! HOPE IS A FULFILL ONE!! AND YAH..

HAPPY NEW YEAR!! AND ITS GONNA BE 21th YEARS OLD! WOOHOO... JIA YOU JY! BETTER FUTURE FOR YOU...LOVE LOVE!

BYE..SEE YAH NEXT YEAR!

How Do You Feel..

How do you feel when your parents going overseas next day?
Sad ? Happy ? Well for me is...HOORAY!! peace and quiet at home..woohooooooo!!
How do you feel when your parents coming back the next day?
Happy right? haha..Well for me is...WHAT!! thats fast...WHY? OMG!!!
you must be thinking..WAH so evil sia..parents go overseas you should be sad right? then when they are coming back..you should be happy ma..but why you opposite de?

Reason: Today is the first day they come back..you know what? QUERRAL! FUCK...

She everyday mention that this house will be demage by my dad because he is not hardworking enough to give us a better life..

But what i can say from my point of view is that this house will just turn cold each day due to her demanding attitude. Ya..i can understand she really works VERY VERY hard for this house..she contribute alot. But.. she want something back. Ya..i know from us ma..but i though that love from parents do not ask for repayment? i do know that our job as their children is to take care of them when they are old. i know i really do know..only that i do not have the ability now right? fuck..how i wish i can earn my own money now! She thinks that she did a good job as a mother? i doubt...what i learn about attitude and my character..i have nothing in my soul that is the same as her...NOTHING! i dont scold my maid? i dont shout at ppl? i dont ask for more than what ppl can give me? i dont anyhow throwt temper? fuck..i just simply unlike her.. where the hell i come from? i think i am too kind :X

i know i cant blame you know..i just cant help it but to blame..blame fate to bring me to her..blame myself to choose to be here..BLAME!! fuck..

ALREADY GONE...

WHAT A MEANINGFUL LYRIC...

Kelly Clarkson - Already Gone

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you, now I can't stop

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry

Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

Already gone, already gone, already gone
Already gone, already gone, already gone, yeah

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

I FORGOT MY BFF!!

MEL!! how can i forgot to thankssss her!!!!

thanks for her wonderful present...THANKSSSS

love yah...muakzzz!

My 20th Birthday..

Wanna thanksssss.
thanks Eileen for the surprise and the accompany on my birthday.
thanks Weiqi for the Card, she came here purposely to drop the card and for everything too.
thanks Stanley for coming to the surprise and the help on the coding.. haha
thanks Loke for the helpfulness.. he really can help yo!
thanks Weihao for the passion of taking nice picturessss..
thanks Maggie for the great hugggsss..
thanks SJ for the wonderful present..aprreciate it!
thanks kenneth for coming..it really great of him!
thanks Singnee for coming although she like abit tired ! haha..
thanks Sean for coming too and ya...thanks...
thanks WeiSiong for the passionate attitude! haha..
thanks Desmond Bro..for taking care of me!
thanks Fishball..FISHBALL..thanksssss..100000thanksss
thanks ShuZhen and JinShan..for the wonderful dinnerrrr and and laughter!
thanks Edmund..thanks for coming..he is always there..:) MOON!
thanks Eugene..thanks for the blur blur look he has..
thanks Daniel..he watched new moon but still watch again! haha..
thanks my Brother..for everything!! EVERYTHING..
thanks my parentsss for letting me coming to this world fill with lovesssss..
although they quarral really fierce on my birthday..and lucky i am not at home!
BUT..still have to thankss them! THANKSSSS.. -.-

my wishes are:
1. i can find my path after graduated
2. i wish i can have the chance to leave this place..
3. i wish everyone around can stay healthy and happy..haha

i wont want to wish my parents stop quarraling..coz i know this will nv happen! NV...

THIS IS HOW I FEEL...

Someone once told me that you have to choose
What you win or lose
You can’t have everything

Don’t you take chances
You might feel the pain
Don’t you love in vain
’cause love won’t set you free

I can’t stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy
But safe as could be

So what if it hurts me?
So what it I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge,
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
I just trying to be happy
I just wanna be happy, yeah

Holding on tightly
Just can’t let go
Just trying to play my role
Slowly disappear

But all these days
They feel like they’re they’re same
Just different faces
Different place
Get me out of here

I can’t stand by the side
Ooh, no
And watch this life pass me by
Pass me by

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge?
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
I’m just trying to be happy

Oh, happy
Oh

So when it turns that I can see???
This rope??
Victim??
Don’t say anything

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge?
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
I just wanna be happy
Happy
I just wanna be
Oh
I just wanna be
Happy.

Leona Lewis -Happy

who can save me...

I will remember!

even i did something wrong or say something wrong!
she have NO right to Slap me...
and by right..i didnt do anything WRONG or SAY anything wrong!
and WHAT...i apologised! WTF..SHE SLAPPED ME!!!
and point right at my face scolding CCB!!! WTH..
those words coming out from her mouth is like knife cutting into my flesh!
WHAT THE FKKKK!!!! i will remember every slap she given me..i swear!
SWEAR!!! ARGGHHH...FCUK!!!! dammmm assss..
thanks to her..RIGHT..thanks to her... i can see a point that i am able to RESPECT her!
SUCK!!! like who would want this kind of feelingssss...
u can say i am "bu xiao shun" will..u all just being looking at the surface!
everyday she being complaining how much she had contribute
but have she ever think that like we didnt contribute AT ALL!
always thinking at her side of view..just been SELFISH!
so what she fulfilled out physical needs? SO WHAT!
the hurt she bring to us..is like..NEVER ENDING!! FUCK.
never ever one day...she can shut her mouth up and listen to
how others feel!! NEVER!!! she is always right...NEVER wrong! NEVER..
even wrong is wont admit it... WONT.. hate it to the deepest..HATE!!

Post Hong Kong Trip...

well..i am back...

hong kong is really a nice place...

life there is so much happening there

i can say that...actually singapore is quite boring..

maybe cause i stay here too long...

maybe i shall move to somewhere someday...

haha...

i will visit hong kong again..

but i hope the next time i go

i shall go with my friends!!!!

haha...

anw..i didnt do much shopping..

spend more time travelling..

and somemore..i didnt bring my own money

so...ya...if i didnt buy anything for any of u..

PLEASE FORGIVE ME..haha..i will buy things for u guys

on my next trip okok..haha..

will upload more...yeah..haha

hong kong i am coming!

woohoo...
one more week!! hongkong..
well well..don know why!
stomach don feel well this few days..
but still ok..its wont affect my mood!!

What a holiday!

bored to the deepest!!

life continue normally..

though bad things went off

GOOD things not yet arrive..

i am still awaiting haha..

And time passes real fast!

its 2 more months 2009 is going into history

and a new year arrive

and it also a new chapter of life begin

reading back what had happen in 2009

i can say HAPPENING!

First FYP in suzhou then IPP

all the friends i made this year

come and go...but they left the deepest footprint

Wah..i say till like today is the last day of 2009

there all more to say...haha..wait till the last day

i will type all the good and bad things happen this year!

woohoo...

This is a really touching video! please watch...

better in time

Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I'll believe in
And I know time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'mma be ok

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will.........

pain

it just hurt so much ..

失落沙洲

我不是一定要你回来
只是当又一个人看海
回头才发现你不在留
下我迂回的徘徊我不
是一定要你回来只是
当又把回忆翻开除了
你之外的空白
还有谁能来教我爱